Unsure...?

Ah, yes, well. There is him. We'll call him B. He's amazing,wonderful. B always makes me feel wanted and loved. But goddamn him, he surecanmake me angry. And he gives me mixed messages. I don't know what to door think.

Oh Lord and Lady, I am watching CSI: NY and some people arestrange. Why the hell would any man buy a $6000 silicone doll? That is sickanddemeaning towards women. I mean, what does that tell you about how farwe'vecome as a species? Ugh, I don't even want to know what men do withthose dolls.Ah, but the jokes about them! How greatly funny they are.

But violence can never be the answer. I don't mean to soundhippie-ish, but I mean, how does beating up someone solve any of yourproblems?It just flabberghasts me how anyone could think that it's okay tohurt someother living creature for their own personal gain.

Ugh! And America! What has it all come to? There arepoverty-stricken families all over the States while the fat cats on WallStreetand the CEOs of the automobile industries are profiting from the hardwork andtoil of American citizens. Why is the working class paying for thevacations andhouses of these rich pigs? Does it really come down to: therich get richer andthe poor stay poor? What happens to the hard workingmiddle class? I'll tell yawhat, the working class, what used to make upmore than 70% of the Americanpopulation, is slowly diminishing. Why? Idon't know if there is any otherreason than this: GREED. Greed is what is,and has been, gripping the Americannation. We always want more and better.We never seem to be happy with what wehave and appriciate everything thathas been put into getting it. And why are wealways buying foriegn products?I undertsnad that America employs a shitload ofpeople overseas for about1/4 of the cost to employ an American, and Iunderstand that those peopleneed jobs and money to feed their families. But,why are we outsourcing jobsthat would help build the American economy? Does itmake any sense? Do youknow that if you buy somethine made in the USA vs. theexact same thing madein China, the product made in America is moreexpensive?

Ah, sorry about my little rant there. I just can't stand thecurrent state of America. Actually wrote a poem about it...

Americana
The houses are dark
nothing shown
but a flickering light
from the television
left on.
The world has fallen
to the depths of
despair and anguish.
Women selling themselves,
trying to make a living.
Drugs line the streets,
offering a better tomorrow.
Fornication, lust, greed.
Criminals escaping
their deserved punishment.
Sickly children left
to care for themselves.
This is what
America's fallen to.
Why is there no justice?

Why is there nobalance?Yeah, I kindawrotethat when I was laying in bed and trying to sleep. My damned mind willnever letme rest. And just for the hell of it: I <3 you Marhea.